Tyler is home and it feels wonderful to be reunited. I have been surprised at how complete our lives feel and I think I have had a little epiphany about Christ's sacrifice. Now that Tyler is home, it feels almost as if the difficulty of the past nine months has been erased. The loneliness and sadness that I felt during that time are gone and I am left to wonder, why did I ever complain? I think I may feel similarly, at some future point when the Atonement has wiped away the pain of mortal trials, all that will remain is how I reacted to those trials. I won't remember the difficulty or the pain because the Atonement will have perfectly healed it all. In that moment I can see myself also asking, why did I ever despair? I hope as I experience more trials of faith in my life I can have more faith than fear and retain an eternal perspective.
Tyler has found himself not rushing to catch green traffic lights and simply savoring the little moments. He spent birthdays and holidays away from his little ones and has a newfound appreciation for our time together and to be present in each moment.
I didn't see this post until tonight. It brought tears to my eyes, both the words you wrote and the picture of Tyler with Andrew and Sylvia. I'm so glad your separation is over and you're all together again.
ReplyDeleteRachel, you were the epitome of grace and patience as you cared for those two precious children by yourself for nine months. You made it look easy, though I know it wasn't.
Beautifully written and beautiful picture :)
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